We can turn it off. We can forget it is there, and even blame it for the wars and misery of the world. At the end of the day, though, alone with ourselves, we all inevitably ask this question: Why do I exist?
I am not arrogant enough to say that I have the answer, but this incredibly collective, yet personal question permeates our humanity.
If you are too cool to consider or even discuss mysticism, god, the possibility of something bigger than you, just stop. Don’t pretend that you have never contemplated why you exist. It is a fundamental question for all humans. We think and feel as an innate part of our nature and the big question of WHY is uniquely human.
When we think of life with the end in mind, it is hard not to ask this question again. Fear of the worst (that there is no real meaning) creeps in and we wonder why we have suffered, why we fight to survive, why the world is so harsh. Then, and only then, can we choose to create our own meaning.
When I was 9 years old, I begged the God I knew as a child to make me “important” and use me as a tool of great change in this life. I heard the words, “mother,” from what I believed to be God. With a sigh, I said, “Okay, sure, but think bigger!” I wanted my impact to be cosmic, personal, liberating and beyond my family or my body. I remember feeling nervous when I woke up the next morning. I had created a purpose for myself and all I knew is that I had the potential to make an impact – I believed it and I still do.
The world’s view of success is a shallow and meaningless one. Money, power, and fame are propped up as a front to the things that truly have purpose. Success doesn’t matter without connection, expansion of our existence, and the fulfillment of our unique meaning. The world is filled with billions of people, each with thoughts wholly different from anyone else. Can you imagine the power if they all lived up to their individual potential? Don’t hold back your ideas, hopes, and value because others are already doing it. Yours is unique. Don’t pretend that you will ever be fully understood, you won’t. Don’t live in fear of others – most people never find the time to create their true meaning, but that has nothing to do with you.
We all have this God-like ability to define and create the parameters of our own life. Through action and inaction, we write the pages of tomorrow – right here and now. Will you harness your power or default?
During my first near-death experience, I remember feeling this sense of urgency… “Wait! I’m not there yet,” I pleaded. Now my fear of not fulfilling my meaning is stronger than my fear of anything else.
Everything that I say on this blog will be dorky, sappy, corny and uncool to people who are not in the right energy to receive it. Each day we live, let’s obtain at least an inch more of our meaning – as we create it to be – trying to answer that nagging question: why do we exist?
Author: Jess Kelly